My house is clean, babe’s asleep, and there’s a load of laundry tumbling in the dryer. It’s a rainy and cozy Monday, and guess what – I even have my sister, Carol Lynn, over to watch Florence right now!
I’ve been thinking more and more about having help with Florence and realizing that the help gives me the beautiful opportunity to be present to my baby. As someone who is prone to getting lost in her thoughts, I’m a big fan of mindfulness. I even took an 8-week course on it when I lived in NYC. I found that the practice of mindfulness keeps me a thousand times calmer and is a real help with depression. On that note, “The Mindful Way through Depression” is SUCH a great book/tool!
Another book I read was “Mindful Birthing,” whose author shared that your baby will be the best mindfulness teacher you’ve ever had. I’ve discovered this truth over and over again in the past five months of caring for a little thing that needs me constantly. Lately though, when I’m with her, I get lost in my thoughts. I start making lists and sublists in my head of all that needs to get done, and in the process, miss out on what the present moment is trying to show me. Or as mindfulness guru, Thich Nhat Hanh said, “The present moment is filled with joy and happiness. If you are attentive, you will see it.”
Not that I don’t just leave her with toys on the floor sometimes, so I can get the dishes done or eat without her trying to grab my food. Totally do, and have absolutely no guilt about that. But when I’m playing with her, changing her, etc, I find that she and I are much happier when I’m also emotionally “there.”
And how could you not want to be there for this cuteness?! Without further ado, here’s Florence at 5-months. She enjoys long walks in her stroller, music in any form, screaming loud at the quiet parts in church, and putting literally everything in her mouth (eww). I’m more and more in love with her each day.